"Power vs. Force"
My life has been driven by power and force.
I had choices to do things different. Money
gave me power and I was forced to change
within and instant. now I write "REALNESS"
for Federal Freedom Writers. Hoping someone
will listen, pay attention. Utilize the signs
of your own intuitions. Or be forced to live
your life by Federal Mental Submissions.
Kenny(SK)Ellis
"A Quickie"
I was purposely pissing off the
republican president by stacking
my paper to major profit off they product
they gave us, to get my people out of poverty.
And Bring my community some unity. For the
younger seeds to believe and achieve
their dreams and goals. Stay on their
toes and stay focused, ferocious and
fearless. And use what jewels I
have gave you or I'll see you as
earless. Did you hear this????
Strength(SK)Knowledge
Bio:
Name: Kenny- SK- Ellis
Born: 6-25-1983
Birthplace: Dallas, Texas
Crime: Possession with Intent to Distribute
more than 25 grams of crack cocaine
Time: 60 Months imprisonment
60 Months of Federal Probation
Release Date: In between 6-21-09/7-21-10
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
How I feel inside by Hood
-How I Feel Inside-
When I sit back and think about the time I did
Makes me reflect on the life of crime I lived
Everyday I sit back and try to figure out my path
Keep my eyes wide so I can see the snakes in the grass
As seconds turn to minutes, minutes turn to hours, hours turn to days
Days turn to months, months turn to years, Damn! I been gone for a minute
In the last 3 years I only had one visit
filled up with lies that they love me and they care
But when shit hit the fan I was the only one there
My roon is the size of your bathroom
Skin still scarred from the tightness of shackles
They tell me when to eat, sleep, shower, and fallback
I was under 21 wasn't ready for all that
I seen it all in my years, stress and Death
Men sleeping with men you could figure out the rest
I became best friends with my pen and my pad
Since my moms passed away and paralyzed my dad
Really made me realize all the problems I had
Compare your life to mines... see it ain't that bad
As my friends turn to enemies, my girl became a stranger
Love fades away and gets replaced by deep anger
Took me a while to see sunshine had to escape my zone
And put my past behind me cause I'm almost home
Hood
When I sit back and think about the time I did
Makes me reflect on the life of crime I lived
Everyday I sit back and try to figure out my path
Keep my eyes wide so I can see the snakes in the grass
As seconds turn to minutes, minutes turn to hours, hours turn to days
Days turn to months, months turn to years, Damn! I been gone for a minute
In the last 3 years I only had one visit
filled up with lies that they love me and they care
But when shit hit the fan I was the only one there
My roon is the size of your bathroom
Skin still scarred from the tightness of shackles
They tell me when to eat, sleep, shower, and fallback
I was under 21 wasn't ready for all that
I seen it all in my years, stress and Death
Men sleeping with men you could figure out the rest
I became best friends with my pen and my pad
Since my moms passed away and paralyzed my dad
Really made me realize all the problems I had
Compare your life to mines... see it ain't that bad
As my friends turn to enemies, my girl became a stranger
Love fades away and gets replaced by deep anger
Took me a while to see sunshine had to escape my zone
And put my past behind me cause I'm almost home
Hood
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Longest bus ride I been on by Eric Tyrone Bryant aka hood
-Longest Bus Ride I Been On-
This is the longest Bus Ride I been on I can't get off
Thinking about the crime I did I'm still pissed off
Going to the feds, Damn what can I say?
Take it to trial or cop a plea. I'm doing time anyway
Now I'm locked behind these steel doors
Locked down time, no more phone calls, missing how I used to ball
Alot of new faces going thru separate cases
C.O.'s ready to beat my ass if I don't follow regulation
The food you can't eat, hard bed, you can't sleep
Ready to knock somebody out if they play me sweet
Same day, same night
Now wifey don't write, no money no kite
Outta mind, outta sight
So many rats out, I had to tap out
They ran up in my safe house I'm glad I got the safe out
No bail books is low, empty ass studio's
Be a while before I do a show
Damn, I can't wait to go
My mans out beefing, wifey out creepin'
These broke niggas eating, I'm down for 40 seasons
Do the math
Hood
Bio:
Name: Eric Tyrone Bryant aka Hood
D.O.B: 3/30/83
Place of Birth: Jersey City, NJ
Age: 24
Crime: Selling Firearms
Sentence: 117 months
Release: 2012
Genre: The less fortunate, people incarcerated, women of all ages
Style: Rapper/ Write R&B music
Motivation: Open the minds of Society
Be on the lookout for Black Mob Records coming soon
Web site under construction
Longest
This is the longest Bus Ride I been on I can't get off
Thinking about the crime I did I'm still pissed off
Going to the feds, Damn what can I say?
Take it to trial or cop a plea. I'm doing time anyway
Now I'm locked behind these steel doors
Locked down time, no more phone calls, missing how I used to ball
Alot of new faces going thru separate cases
C.O.'s ready to beat my ass if I don't follow regulation
The food you can't eat, hard bed, you can't sleep
Ready to knock somebody out if they play me sweet
Same day, same night
Now wifey don't write, no money no kite
Outta mind, outta sight
So many rats out, I had to tap out
They ran up in my safe house I'm glad I got the safe out
No bail books is low, empty ass studio's
Be a while before I do a show
Damn, I can't wait to go
My mans out beefing, wifey out creepin'
These broke niggas eating, I'm down for 40 seasons
Do the math
Hood
Bio:
Name: Eric Tyrone Bryant aka Hood
D.O.B: 3/30/83
Place of Birth: Jersey City, NJ
Age: 24
Crime: Selling Firearms
Sentence: 117 months
Release: 2012
Genre: The less fortunate, people incarcerated, women of all ages
Style: Rapper/ Write R&B music
Motivation: Open the minds of Society
Be on the lookout for Black Mob Records coming soon
Web site under construction
Longest
How in the hell did I get here?
- How the Hell Did I Get Here? -
I recently celebrated my 37th birthday. Thank-you, I definitely didn't expect to make it to this age. The thing is I've been behind these fences for 16 of those 37 birthdays. I'm not complaining, at least I don't think so, but I am pondering on how the hell I reached this point in my life. Don't misunderstand me I am guilty, and extremely remorseful for the life that I took. So, I have no illusions about the fact that I deserve to be in prison, my thing is do I deserve to die here?
My mother did her very best to instill in me a sense of right and wrong along with different family members and her friends. However, once I reached a certain age I felt as though there was nothing a woman could teach me about being a man. That was one of my biggest mistakes. I now tell my mother every chance I get that she was right about everything she was trying to tell me.
I played football during high school, I'm not saying I was a star or anything, but I was alright. I graduated, and got the opportunity; No, I was blessed with the opportunity to go away to college. It felt like I got caught up in the matrix when I left school and ventured out into the street life. I looked up three years later and I was facing a long stretch due to a tremendously bad choice. Some thing for which I can never make an amends for. However, I do try my best to live my life in a manner that I have, or at least I'm trying, to learn from this situation. That still doesn't stop me from asking myself, "How the Hell did I get here?"
Sean Qualls
Name: Sean Qualls
DOB: 12-2-70
Crime: Murder 2
Time: 15 to Life
Date of Release: nothing definite but up for parole in 6/2010
I'm a straight shooter so basically what you see is what you get. I'm in a constant state of learning. Meaning that I'm a work in progress but I'm not where I used to be. I have many goals and dreams beyond these confines, I'm just struggling to be patient and stop from being to anxious about getting there.
I recently celebrated my 37th birthday. Thank-you, I definitely didn't expect to make it to this age. The thing is I've been behind these fences for 16 of those 37 birthdays. I'm not complaining, at least I don't think so, but I am pondering on how the hell I reached this point in my life. Don't misunderstand me I am guilty, and extremely remorseful for the life that I took. So, I have no illusions about the fact that I deserve to be in prison, my thing is do I deserve to die here?
My mother did her very best to instill in me a sense of right and wrong along with different family members and her friends. However, once I reached a certain age I felt as though there was nothing a woman could teach me about being a man. That was one of my biggest mistakes. I now tell my mother every chance I get that she was right about everything she was trying to tell me.
I played football during high school, I'm not saying I was a star or anything, but I was alright. I graduated, and got the opportunity; No, I was blessed with the opportunity to go away to college. It felt like I got caught up in the matrix when I left school and ventured out into the street life. I looked up three years later and I was facing a long stretch due to a tremendously bad choice. Some thing for which I can never make an amends for. However, I do try my best to live my life in a manner that I have, or at least I'm trying, to learn from this situation. That still doesn't stop me from asking myself, "How the Hell did I get here?"
Sean Qualls
Name: Sean Qualls
DOB: 12-2-70
Crime: Murder 2
Time: 15 to Life
Date of Release: nothing definite but up for parole in 6/2010
I'm a straight shooter so basically what you see is what you get. I'm in a constant state of learning. Meaning that I'm a work in progress but I'm not where I used to be. I have many goals and dreams beyond these confines, I'm just struggling to be patient and stop from being to anxious about getting there.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
All in a day in Federal Prison C. Smith
-All in a day in a Federal Prison-
Friday, December, 28, 07
Time: 6:00
I wake up, brush my teeth, wash my face make up my steel bunk( which we call a bed). I start my work detail cleaning up the laundry room that I get paid 60 cent a day to do. After that, I may go to breakfast. But on this morning we had something they call "shit on a shingle" ( which consist of a hard biscuit and mystery gravy meat), and hot brown water that is supposed to be coffee and let's not forget about the hard fried potatoes. After I come from breakfast I watch a little CNN News to see what's going on in the world before I start the drug program called RDAP; Residential Drug Abuse Program. It's Monday - Friday, 7:30 am to 10:30 am. Which consist of talking about your criminal thinking errors, attitude adjustments, rational and irrational thinking to help you make better choices in life besides a criminal and drug abuse lifestyle. And believe it or not, I'm really getting something out of it. Now that the program is over for the day and I have about a hour or so to kill before lunch, I go to my cell to read. Chow is called and their serving dry tuna fish, dry cake, and a little bag of stale potato chips and warm brown water that's suppose to be tea. The meals here are something else. You would have to see it for yourself to belive it but just take my word. After lunch I go to school for two hours, I might as well get something out of it. A lot of guys just watch BET and read magazines all day when they could be doing something positive with their time to better themselves. After school I go back to my cell to read or take a nap until the 4:30 pm count that everybody has to stand up on. Dinner's about 5:45 pm and it's the worse meal of the day, turkey ham. What the pig had sex with the turkey? Now the day is about over so i go to the gym to workout until 8:30. That's when they call recall. That means everyone returns back to your unit. At that time I take a shower, maybe watch TV for an hour before it's lock down at 10 pm. In the cell me and my celly (cell mate) may talk or I will read or listen to the radio before we hit the lights for the night . And that's all in a day in a Federal Prison. Next day same thing, different day.
C.Smith
A Little About Me
What's up? Me, I can't complain because life is what you make it. Besides I'm in a bad situation but I'm making the best out of it. Any way let me start by introducing myself. My name is Conrad Smith. Friends call me Rad for short. I'm 32 years old. I like to travel and have fun. I've been doing this time by myself and now I'm a year from the front door. I was born and raised in Columbus, Ohio. The reason for me writing this is because I get lonely at times and could use some words of encouragement that I can take home and use to make it through life. I'm always open for some positive feedback, or insight on life that can help me better myself. So when you find the time, hit me up.
C.Smith
Bio:
Name: Conrad Smith
D.O.B. 2-16-75
Crime: Poss. of a Firearm
Time: 57 months
Date of Release: 1-14-09
Friday, December, 28, 07
Time: 6:00
I wake up, brush my teeth, wash my face make up my steel bunk( which we call a bed). I start my work detail cleaning up the laundry room that I get paid 60 cent a day to do. After that, I may go to breakfast. But on this morning we had something they call "shit on a shingle" ( which consist of a hard biscuit and mystery gravy meat), and hot brown water that is supposed to be coffee and let's not forget about the hard fried potatoes. After I come from breakfast I watch a little CNN News to see what's going on in the world before I start the drug program called RDAP; Residential Drug Abuse Program. It's Monday - Friday, 7:30 am to 10:30 am. Which consist of talking about your criminal thinking errors, attitude adjustments, rational and irrational thinking to help you make better choices in life besides a criminal and drug abuse lifestyle. And believe it or not, I'm really getting something out of it. Now that the program is over for the day and I have about a hour or so to kill before lunch, I go to my cell to read. Chow is called and their serving dry tuna fish, dry cake, and a little bag of stale potato chips and warm brown water that's suppose to be tea. The meals here are something else. You would have to see it for yourself to belive it but just take my word. After lunch I go to school for two hours, I might as well get something out of it. A lot of guys just watch BET and read magazines all day when they could be doing something positive with their time to better themselves. After school I go back to my cell to read or take a nap until the 4:30 pm count that everybody has to stand up on. Dinner's about 5:45 pm and it's the worse meal of the day, turkey ham. What the pig had sex with the turkey? Now the day is about over so i go to the gym to workout until 8:30. That's when they call recall. That means everyone returns back to your unit. At that time I take a shower, maybe watch TV for an hour before it's lock down at 10 pm. In the cell me and my celly (cell mate) may talk or I will read or listen to the radio before we hit the lights for the night . And that's all in a day in a Federal Prison. Next day same thing, different day.
C.Smith
A Little About Me
What's up? Me, I can't complain because life is what you make it. Besides I'm in a bad situation but I'm making the best out of it. Any way let me start by introducing myself. My name is Conrad Smith. Friends call me Rad for short. I'm 32 years old. I like to travel and have fun. I've been doing this time by myself and now I'm a year from the front door. I was born and raised in Columbus, Ohio. The reason for me writing this is because I get lonely at times and could use some words of encouragement that I can take home and use to make it through life. I'm always open for some positive feedback, or insight on life that can help me better myself. So when you find the time, hit me up.
C.Smith
Bio:
Name: Conrad Smith
D.O.B. 2-16-75
Crime: Poss. of a Firearm
Time: 57 months
Date of Release: 1-14-09
New Years George Timbers
New Years:
When I think of proposing a New Years' Resolution, it makes me wonder if I am actually trying to change my future. I've been living my resolution for several years now and if you knew my past you'd be impressed. I use to be every mothers' nightmare, the child who grew into the Devils' advocate. What I did was for ill gain but my biggest reward is getting my life back. My gift to the world is to stay the man I've become, who is open for improvements. I have the power to make my mother proud to call me her son. All my life it seemed as though I've been searching for that star that brightens my heaven, I just had to open my eyes. For years the disguise I wore also clouded my vision but over time evaporated like an early morning mist to let the sun shine through. Countless years I've practiced being other than I was taught and that's to be a man. I determine my own future so why wouldn't I want the best for myself? Don't you? Let's not wait to designate a time to consider of future, the time is now. If you wait it could pass you by.
George Timbers
12/21/07
When I think of proposing a New Years' Resolution, it makes me wonder if I am actually trying to change my future. I've been living my resolution for several years now and if you knew my past you'd be impressed. I use to be every mothers' nightmare, the child who grew into the Devils' advocate. What I did was for ill gain but my biggest reward is getting my life back. My gift to the world is to stay the man I've become, who is open for improvements. I have the power to make my mother proud to call me her son. All my life it seemed as though I've been searching for that star that brightens my heaven, I just had to open my eyes. For years the disguise I wore also clouded my vision but over time evaporated like an early morning mist to let the sun shine through. Countless years I've practiced being other than I was taught and that's to be a man. I determine my own future so why wouldn't I want the best for myself? Don't you? Let's not wait to designate a time to consider of future, the time is now. If you wait it could pass you by.
George Timbers
12/21/07
Monday, January 7, 2008
Thoughts of the Hung over by Thesis
The following is G-14 Classified.
This is from an anonymous writer.
Thesis is very unique as you will see.
I hope you will enjoy this and send us
some feedback on what you think.
It would be appreciated.
Always with Sincerity,
Anthony Owens
Editor-in-Chief
Thoughts of the Hung Over:
Dudes walk around and play the part but not from the heart
They act in plays to play out tearing their own family apart
While torn are the fabrics that hold that " Us Against Them" together
Capitalism with a grin, closer to the temple than words: Change Weather
Whether he knows it or not, this is not a Black Comedy
We've seen funnier babies drown that were related to me
With the attempt made to claim that this is just a baptism gone wrong
Really it's race relative to post birth abortion old hymn style song
While "Abort the Mission If It's Critical", I sung with one lung
Dedicated this to Newport's Man named Marlboro at Pall Mall, for fun
Completely bought in to looking cool with bad breath and cancer
They stole my daughter's legs and sold me how she could've been a dancer
But due to the fact that these words fall on deaf ears, I digress
I strike my words and move to caring about T.V. and how people dress!
Thesis
This is from an anonymous writer.
Thesis is very unique as you will see.
I hope you will enjoy this and send us
some feedback on what you think.
It would be appreciated.
Always with Sincerity,
Anthony Owens
Editor-in-Chief
Thoughts of the Hung Over:
Dudes walk around and play the part but not from the heart
They act in plays to play out tearing their own family apart
While torn are the fabrics that hold that " Us Against Them" together
Capitalism with a grin, closer to the temple than words: Change Weather
Whether he knows it or not, this is not a Black Comedy
We've seen funnier babies drown that were related to me
With the attempt made to claim that this is just a baptism gone wrong
Really it's race relative to post birth abortion old hymn style song
While "Abort the Mission If It's Critical", I sung with one lung
Dedicated this to Newport's Man named Marlboro at Pall Mall, for fun
Completely bought in to looking cool with bad breath and cancer
They stole my daughter's legs and sold me how she could've been a dancer
But due to the fact that these words fall on deaf ears, I digress
I strike my words and move to caring about T.V. and how people dress!
Thesis
Saturday, January 5, 2008
The Time to change by James Berry
-The Time to Change-
Over the course of my life I've thought many times, I want to do something so great that I change the world... I know it's possible, it's been done before. History's filled with revolutionaries; whether the celebrated leader or the villafied conqueror, both impacted the world. Maybe that's it then, I'll be a general, politician, or terrorist, I don't know... something great and terrible. The world would feel me then, but nah... that's not my style. So what about me?! how can I make my mark? I'm pretty creative sometimes. I could write, invent, I've been known to spit bars. Maybe i'll do something like that. Yeah, maybe. But what I realize now is that there's only the now and the future is built from it. Change is a constant. The world changed when I wrote this, again when it was read and if there's a time it crosses a mind, there it goes again. It changes when you hug your kids, listen and be a friend or just give a smile to a passer-by. We underestimate our importance. An importance we don't have to earn because we have it whether we like it or not. The world feels our impact, even if they don't know they're feeling it and when I say they. I mean man, beast and tree. So if I ask you what time it is, the answer is now, and now is the time to change the world. What change are you going to make?
James Berry
Over the course of my life I've thought many times, I want to do something so great that I change the world... I know it's possible, it's been done before. History's filled with revolutionaries; whether the celebrated leader or the villafied conqueror, both impacted the world. Maybe that's it then, I'll be a general, politician, or terrorist, I don't know... something great and terrible. The world would feel me then, but nah... that's not my style. So what about me?! how can I make my mark? I'm pretty creative sometimes. I could write, invent, I've been known to spit bars. Maybe i'll do something like that. Yeah, maybe. But what I realize now is that there's only the now and the future is built from it. Change is a constant. The world changed when I wrote this, again when it was read and if there's a time it crosses a mind, there it goes again. It changes when you hug your kids, listen and be a friend or just give a smile to a passer-by. We underestimate our importance. An importance we don't have to earn because we have it whether we like it or not. The world feels our impact, even if they don't know they're feeling it and when I say they. I mean man, beast and tree. So if I ask you what time it is, the answer is now, and now is the time to change the world. What change are you going to make?
James Berry
Live life for yoourself by Anthony Owens
-Live Life for Yourself-
Finally, the new year is here and the crowd goes wild as the ball drops and celebration begins. What is Your New Years' Resolution? My New Years' Resolution is to be disciplined, dedicated and devoted to the future. Not just for myself but for those around me also. But I know I have to be focused on myself first, so I am and will be, this is My Year!! The year I return home. The year I crawl up out of this grave I've been buried alive in. They thought that it was over for me. They thought that I would let this consume me and I'd throw in the towel and let this 'graveyard' transform me into a corpse. I am not dead! I am living!! My hand breaks the surface of the earth and I see light. What I want this year I'm going to get. What do you want? What do you REALLY want? How bad do you want it? For that person out there that wants a promotion, go and get it. Arrive to work early or go on Saturday and learn the job thats over your own- Do Something!! Your boss isn't going to promote you because you want it. For that person out there who wants to lose weight, go and get it! You won't lose any weight eating ice cream while watching American Idol. Even though me & you like to do this, it won't get the results we're looking for. We have to make it happen. The slim waist won't happen on it's own, learn to do yoga or tae bo or start out with aerobics, Just Go and Get It! Nothing is coming to us guaranteed except death. I'd rather die later than be dead now. The time is NOW. NOW is your chance to live and be ambitious. Only you can stop you. And only you can get exactly what you want. Why chase someone else's dream? Put that dedication into your own life and make your dream a reality. Stop asking what if this or what if that goes wrong. Instead, ask yourself - How can I make this happen? What do I need to learn to make this reality for me? Do yourself a favor: Live Life For Yourself. This is my New Years' Resolution to you; Live Life For You
Editor-in-Chief
Anthony Owens
Finally, the new year is here and the crowd goes wild as the ball drops and celebration begins. What is Your New Years' Resolution? My New Years' Resolution is to be disciplined, dedicated and devoted to the future. Not just for myself but for those around me also. But I know I have to be focused on myself first, so I am and will be, this is My Year!! The year I return home. The year I crawl up out of this grave I've been buried alive in. They thought that it was over for me. They thought that I would let this consume me and I'd throw in the towel and let this 'graveyard' transform me into a corpse. I am not dead! I am living!! My hand breaks the surface of the earth and I see light. What I want this year I'm going to get. What do you want? What do you REALLY want? How bad do you want it? For that person out there that wants a promotion, go and get it. Arrive to work early or go on Saturday and learn the job thats over your own- Do Something!! Your boss isn't going to promote you because you want it. For that person out there who wants to lose weight, go and get it! You won't lose any weight eating ice cream while watching American Idol. Even though me & you like to do this, it won't get the results we're looking for. We have to make it happen. The slim waist won't happen on it's own, learn to do yoga or tae bo or start out with aerobics, Just Go and Get It! Nothing is coming to us guaranteed except death. I'd rather die later than be dead now. The time is NOW. NOW is your chance to live and be ambitious. Only you can stop you. And only you can get exactly what you want. Why chase someone else's dream? Put that dedication into your own life and make your dream a reality. Stop asking what if this or what if that goes wrong. Instead, ask yourself - How can I make this happen? What do I need to learn to make this reality for me? Do yourself a favor: Live Life For Yourself. This is my New Years' Resolution to you; Live Life For You
Editor-in-Chief
Anthony Owens
Fortune cookie from todays lunch by George Timbers
-Fortune Cookie from Today's Lunch-
Dear World,
This is the last day of the year, and my last one spent away from those I love. They say music soothes the savage beast but I'm not a beast, I'm a man. I'll be the first to admit I haven't acted like one but we all make mistakes.
On this night I will not propose any type of resolution, for I will always try and better myself. Why put a date or time on something that'll better you? It could pass you by.
Tonight everyone was in an upbeat mood because we're going into a new year and this year everyone of us in the program, at the moment, will at least make it to the half-way house but a few won't. That's more than enough to be glad.
For too long I've been like a fish out of water, a sheep in disguise. Now I can only be myself. Very few people if any can say they know the true George.
Well, this year I am only going to be myself. Welcome to the real world Mr. Timbers.
The World is Only What I Make It
George Timbers
Dear World,
This is the last day of the year, and my last one spent away from those I love. They say music soothes the savage beast but I'm not a beast, I'm a man. I'll be the first to admit I haven't acted like one but we all make mistakes.
On this night I will not propose any type of resolution, for I will always try and better myself. Why put a date or time on something that'll better you? It could pass you by.
Tonight everyone was in an upbeat mood because we're going into a new year and this year everyone of us in the program, at the moment, will at least make it to the half-way house but a few won't. That's more than enough to be glad.
For too long I've been like a fish out of water, a sheep in disguise. Now I can only be myself. Very few people if any can say they know the true George.
Well, this year I am only going to be myself. Welcome to the real world Mr. Timbers.
The World is Only What I Make It
George Timbers
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Anytime Anthiny Owens
Anytime:
As I was sitting here Brian McKnights' song 'Anytime' came into my head. So, I ask you - Do I ever cross your mind Anytime? It's strange because I find myself thinking of you. Your name, how you look, your age, what you do for a living and a million other things I would only know if I knew you on a day-to-day basis. I'm sure you have alot going on in your life but do you think of me at all? Out of sight, out of mind is a reality for us in here. Would it take for me to become a household name and your favorite artist for you to give me a moment of your day, just by listening to me? Or what if I was moving to your area, destiny pulled us together and my name resurfaces in your life(on a more intimate level) would you think of me when I'm gone? Would you look forward to hearing from me then? Would my words have more meaning if I was your brother incarcerated? Well, if I loved you and sat my jacket down over every puddle you crossed, opened every door for you, had a good relationship with your mother and you with mine, I even know how to touch you, know how to kiss you, know how to lick you and how to stick you..and on top of that I'd give you the last bite of my chicken parmesan and you know how I love it but I'd be trying to show you I love you even more - Would that help you think of me when I'm out your sight? Would you be my friend through my time of need? Could you be faithful to me? Or would everything you and I have done for our relationship be worth nothing when I'm out of your presence? These things and so much more cross my mind when I think of you, whoever you may be. I think if you were here beside me you may understand how it feels to wonder if your family and friends will be alright and everyday in good health. But back to you. Everytime I write I want you to feel me and open your mind for stimulation so we can be one together, however brief that moment may be but I'd like it to be our moment to be shared. But the fact of the matter is I've forever been out of your sight. I never sent you roses to your job to make you the topic of discussion between your co-workers. You have never been nervous from anticipation of seeing yours truly. However, I have opened my heart so it can spill love on these pages for your mind. I have let you know I'm just as curious about you, if not more than you are of me. Does your curiosity continue when you turn off your computer? If I am in your mind what do I look like? Please let me know the answer to this! I may not be high yellow in the winter and bronze in the summer in your mind. Maybe my teeth are perfect and I don't have that front one chipped. Maybe I'm 6feet 2 and a little chubby instead of 5'7'' and slim with a 6 pack. Maybe I'm the answer to all your dreams you wish for in a man. Well, however you may see me in your mind - it doesn't matter long as I'm in your mind. Listen to 'Anytime' and while you do visualize me. I can be your father,cousin or brother, closest friend or most satisfying lover. I may, for now, be out your sight but see me in your mind how you like. Long as I'm there- out of sight but in your mind see me very clear. I'll be there for you in time physically - so for now enjoy me mentally..visually... Anytime
Anthony Owens
As I was sitting here Brian McKnights' song 'Anytime' came into my head. So, I ask you - Do I ever cross your mind Anytime? It's strange because I find myself thinking of you. Your name, how you look, your age, what you do for a living and a million other things I would only know if I knew you on a day-to-day basis. I'm sure you have alot going on in your life but do you think of me at all? Out of sight, out of mind is a reality for us in here. Would it take for me to become a household name and your favorite artist for you to give me a moment of your day, just by listening to me? Or what if I was moving to your area, destiny pulled us together and my name resurfaces in your life(on a more intimate level) would you think of me when I'm gone? Would you look forward to hearing from me then? Would my words have more meaning if I was your brother incarcerated? Well, if I loved you and sat my jacket down over every puddle you crossed, opened every door for you, had a good relationship with your mother and you with mine, I even know how to touch you, know how to kiss you, know how to lick you and how to stick you..and on top of that I'd give you the last bite of my chicken parmesan and you know how I love it but I'd be trying to show you I love you even more - Would that help you think of me when I'm out your sight? Would you be my friend through my time of need? Could you be faithful to me? Or would everything you and I have done for our relationship be worth nothing when I'm out of your presence? These things and so much more cross my mind when I think of you, whoever you may be. I think if you were here beside me you may understand how it feels to wonder if your family and friends will be alright and everyday in good health. But back to you. Everytime I write I want you to feel me and open your mind for stimulation so we can be one together, however brief that moment may be but I'd like it to be our moment to be shared. But the fact of the matter is I've forever been out of your sight. I never sent you roses to your job to make you the topic of discussion between your co-workers. You have never been nervous from anticipation of seeing yours truly. However, I have opened my heart so it can spill love on these pages for your mind. I have let you know I'm just as curious about you, if not more than you are of me. Does your curiosity continue when you turn off your computer? If I am in your mind what do I look like? Please let me know the answer to this! I may not be high yellow in the winter and bronze in the summer in your mind. Maybe my teeth are perfect and I don't have that front one chipped. Maybe I'm 6feet 2 and a little chubby instead of 5'7'' and slim with a 6 pack. Maybe I'm the answer to all your dreams you wish for in a man. Well, however you may see me in your mind - it doesn't matter long as I'm in your mind. Listen to 'Anytime' and while you do visualize me. I can be your father,cousin or brother, closest friend or most satisfying lover. I may, for now, be out your sight but see me in your mind how you like. Long as I'm there- out of sight but in your mind see me very clear. I'll be there for you in time physically - so for now enjoy me mentally..visually... Anytime
Anthony Owens
The power of love Squeeky Johnson-bey
WITHOUT DOUBT OR CONTRADICTION WHEN I SAY THAT
LOVE IS THE RULER OF THE UNIVERSE AND THE ONLY ELEMENT
NEEDED TO BE CONTENT, ITS SURELY IS JUST THAT.
I EXPERIENCED IT FIRST HAND OUT OF A PERIOD OF BEING "M.I.A."
AND THE NATURE OF ITS FORCE BLEW ME AWAY. I AM BEYOND THE
CONCEPT OF BEING GRATEFUL. EVERYTHING FALLS ON THE SHOULDERS
OF "OPERATION GET ME".
WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE OR CLUE OF THE HAPPENING EVENTS, I WAS
CALLED TO ATTEND WHAT I CALL ''THE HALL OF FAME''. UPON GOING
IN THERE I WAS PUZZLED ABOUT WHO IT WAS THAT REQUESTED MY
APPEARENCE, AND TO MY EYES IT WAS AN ARRAY OF LOVE THROWN MY
WAY. FIRST I SAW THE BEAUTIFUL AND DEAR TO MY HEART "APRIL". IF
YOU COULD GRASP THE WAY I FELT ABOUT SEEING HER TEARS WOULD'VE
FALL LIKE THE DRIZZLE OF RAIN IN THE MONTH OF APRIL. MUCH NEEDED
AND THE REFORM OF LIFE BEGINS. YEAH THAT WAS A JOY TO ACCOUNT
FOR IN MY MENTAL. BUT THE ???? STILL REMAIN, BECAUSE I THOUGHT SHE
WAS MET WITH OPPOSITION IN ODER TO SEE ME. AFTERWARD THOUGH I
SEEN MY SISTER-N-LAW & NEPHEW/GOD-SON. THE POWER OF THAT WAS
STILL HOLDING WEIGHT.
THE EXPLOSION OF IT THOUGH CAME IN THE FORM OF "MGM GRAND" IN
LAS VAGAS BEING BLOWN TO BITS, WHEN I LOOKED OVER APRIL'S SHOULDER
AND SEEN "THE QUEEN">>>>>>>>>>MY MOTHER AND HER FLOCK>>>>MY LITTLE
SISTER & HER KIDS....tHEY WERE ALL SMILES AND THE LOVE WAS PUSHED OUT
ASAP. I MEAN, THE WORTHINESS OF SEEING EVERYONE AND HOLDING THEIR
LOVE INSIDE OF ME IS TRULY SUMS UP IN THE WORD OF >>>>>>>>>>WOW!!!!!!
DON'T ALLOW ANYONE TO DISRUPT OR SHORTEN THE LOVE YOU HAVE FOR THEM
BECAUSE LOVE IS THE KEY TO THE ELEMENTS OF LIFE..........Squeeky Johnson-Bey
LOVE IS THE RULER OF THE UNIVERSE AND THE ONLY ELEMENT
NEEDED TO BE CONTENT, ITS SURELY IS JUST THAT.
I EXPERIENCED IT FIRST HAND OUT OF A PERIOD OF BEING "M.I.A."
AND THE NATURE OF ITS FORCE BLEW ME AWAY. I AM BEYOND THE
CONCEPT OF BEING GRATEFUL. EVERYTHING FALLS ON THE SHOULDERS
OF "OPERATION GET ME".
WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE OR CLUE OF THE HAPPENING EVENTS, I WAS
CALLED TO ATTEND WHAT I CALL ''THE HALL OF FAME''. UPON GOING
IN THERE I WAS PUZZLED ABOUT WHO IT WAS THAT REQUESTED MY
APPEARENCE, AND TO MY EYES IT WAS AN ARRAY OF LOVE THROWN MY
WAY. FIRST I SAW THE BEAUTIFUL AND DEAR TO MY HEART "APRIL". IF
YOU COULD GRASP THE WAY I FELT ABOUT SEEING HER TEARS WOULD'VE
FALL LIKE THE DRIZZLE OF RAIN IN THE MONTH OF APRIL. MUCH NEEDED
AND THE REFORM OF LIFE BEGINS. YEAH THAT WAS A JOY TO ACCOUNT
FOR IN MY MENTAL. BUT THE ???? STILL REMAIN, BECAUSE I THOUGHT SHE
WAS MET WITH OPPOSITION IN ODER TO SEE ME. AFTERWARD THOUGH I
SEEN MY SISTER-N-LAW & NEPHEW/GOD-SON. THE POWER OF THAT WAS
STILL HOLDING WEIGHT.
THE EXPLOSION OF IT THOUGH CAME IN THE FORM OF "MGM GRAND" IN
LAS VAGAS BEING BLOWN TO BITS, WHEN I LOOKED OVER APRIL'S SHOULDER
AND SEEN "THE QUEEN">>>>>>>>>>MY MOTHER AND HER FLOCK>>>>MY LITTLE
SISTER & HER KIDS....tHEY WERE ALL SMILES AND THE LOVE WAS PUSHED OUT
ASAP. I MEAN, THE WORTHINESS OF SEEING EVERYONE AND HOLDING THEIR
LOVE INSIDE OF ME IS TRULY SUMS UP IN THE WORD OF >>>>>>>>>>WOW!!!!!!
DON'T ALLOW ANYONE TO DISRUPT OR SHORTEN THE LOVE YOU HAVE FOR THEM
BECAUSE LOVE IS THE KEY TO THE ELEMENTS OF LIFE..........Squeeky Johnson-Bey
Words of a Prison cell by Wilkes
Words of a Prison Cell:
I come in different sizes. No matter the size I drive people crazy. I've seen things you will never see. I hear things you will never hear. You wouldn't believe what I know. I know more about your husbands, brothers, sons, uncles, nephews, cousins, and homies then you would ever know. They can lie to you and play the roles they play. I hold the truth. I know who's a closet homo but to you he's a man. I know who's a snitch but to the compound he's a stand up dude. I see peoples true feelings. Who misses their family and loved ones, plus those who plan to brake the law. I'm awake all the time. I know who steals but to the compound he's a real nigga. Everything I see and hear isn't always bad or negative. I also know who's smart and learning things to stay away from me. Sometimes I'm your enemy and sometimes I'm your friend. You come to me willingly or by force. You come to me to fight or to weep your remorse, I can go on and on and never end. But you need to remember I'm designed to make you want to stay out of the pen.
100%
Wilkes
I come in different sizes. No matter the size I drive people crazy. I've seen things you will never see. I hear things you will never hear. You wouldn't believe what I know. I know more about your husbands, brothers, sons, uncles, nephews, cousins, and homies then you would ever know. They can lie to you and play the roles they play. I hold the truth. I know who's a closet homo but to you he's a man. I know who's a snitch but to the compound he's a stand up dude. I see peoples true feelings. Who misses their family and loved ones, plus those who plan to brake the law. I'm awake all the time. I know who steals but to the compound he's a real nigga. Everything I see and hear isn't always bad or negative. I also know who's smart and learning things to stay away from me. Sometimes I'm your enemy and sometimes I'm your friend. You come to me willingly or by force. You come to me to fight or to weep your remorse, I can go on and on and never end. But you need to remember I'm designed to make you want to stay out of the pen.
100%
Wilkes
12/14/2007 Squeeky Johnson-bey
12/14/07
The makings of another day,still fills my thoughts.
I hope that you understand . I talk with with Dee-Dee last
night and for some kind of reason I seems to know when
hurt/harm, or danger assumes her path. She is going through a lot
things and it aches me to see her go through it. I do the best I
can for greater of good.But it's not enough. I fear the fact when I
come home that I will be faced with the a good chance of returning
to the ways-of-old,behind her past relationship. Life goes on though
and i won't aloow it to stop me from moving on. I love the lady and
that's not enough, because I want the best for her as well too.
I have to be there for my son beyond all stumbling blocks and
play my position to the fullest. That is what its all about "playing position"
learning your role in this life. Everybody can't be the King or Prince. But I
do hold the key to my destiny.........and I am KING>>>>>>>>> Squeeky Johnson-Bey
The makings of another day,still fills my thoughts.
I hope that you understand . I talk with with Dee-Dee last
night and for some kind of reason I seems to know when
hurt/harm, or danger assumes her path. She is going through a lot
things and it aches me to see her go through it. I do the best I
can for greater of good.But it's not enough. I fear the fact when I
come home that I will be faced with the a good chance of returning
to the ways-of-old,behind her past relationship. Life goes on though
and i won't aloow it to stop me from moving on. I love the lady and
that's not enough, because I want the best for her as well too.
I have to be there for my son beyond all stumbling blocks and
play my position to the fullest. That is what its all about "playing position"
learning your role in this life. Everybody can't be the King or Prince. But I
do hold the key to my destiny.........and I am KING>>>>>>>>> Squeeky Johnson-Bey
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