When reality sets in George Timbers

-When Reality Sets In-
All my life I've been searching for things I already had freedom, happiness, and love. But somewhere along the way I lost focus of what meant the most to me and settled for something less.
For several years I wasted my time trying to achieve an imaginary dream selling drugs, living to do the streets dirty work. I got so caught up in what was going on around me that I lost focus of what I wanted.
All I wanted was to be loved, to be happy at what I was doing, to mean something to somebody. What I didn't realize, I already had everything. Right now I'm in a drug treatment program but the main subject we talk about is our behaviors. The behaviors that lead us to make irrational decisions, thinking for the wrong reasons and knowing what we do affects people around us.
One question I ask myself often is 'How can you hurt what you love?' I forced what I love to wait on me because of bad choices that I made. Now we are about to be united there are people in our lives for a reason. There is someone for everyone, some people search all their lives to find happiness only to compromise for something less. Then they become irritated after a period of time.
Due to the choices I've made in the past forced me to evaluate my life and to recognize where my life was heading. It gave me a chance to realize the things I wanted, God had already given me. We have been awarded so many miracles that we begin to take life for granted and think miracles have to be special gifts. But isn't it a gift to find that special person to love, to share your dreams with, that person that makes you feel complete? This person becomes the air you breathe, the food you drink, the energy that gives you life to go on. now that I've found my miracle, I have to prove that I understand that God gave me many tests and I learned a lot but I also failed a lot but through thick and thin Kelly stayed by me. no matter the extent of bullshit I put her through she stayed in my corner. Everytime the bell rung she was prepared to go another round with me now it's time to throw in the towel in for the streets to become the man she dreamt I could be. No longer will it be a dream, my gift to you is love.
You'll never have to wait again, you are the reason that's made me change. I didn't know what love was until i found you.
George Timbers